Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Ugh it's hard to write down a flash days after it occurs, one of 2 things are gonna happen, either it's matured somehow in my subconscious, or else it's evaporated.

here's the flash:
either we make the world or we're it's result. I'm of the opinion that we make the world but we're always living a few steps after it happens & are trying to catch up, this makes us look for patterns that indicate future events, and takes responsibility for the world out of our hands. Buddhism says the only control you have over the world is how you react to it. But that's because our perception is a few microseconds slow. Whatever happens might be a quality of a single continuum (this one), but it doesn't rule out others.

Remote viewing, (a sanctioned spy technique used by the govts of both the US & Soviet Russia) uses a squiggle line to represent the immediate impression before any interpretation, it's there so the mind can go back to something original and "permanent" for reference. OK that's pretty close, but it's not the event itself. The "event itself" is some kind of singularity that we can only observe in retrospect. It's gamely plausible that reflecting back on an event, places the observer in a different time than the event, as it places the event in memory. But it's also evident that time affects the world around us and leaves archaeological evidence that other stuff is going on. So it's the mechanism of perception that is actually at fault.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." The above speech by Nelson Mandela was orignally written by Marianne Williamson who is the author of other similar material." source

The trouble with having power beyond measure is that it's freakin' lonesome at the top. In Joe's years as a vagabond, knowing that there were other people in the world made the trip worth observing, but he despised them because their territorial insecurities kept him from settling down.

I just got back from a road trip to visit my daughter. The traveling might have been a nightmare, or an Aircooled VW mechanics dream vacation. The engine has run wonderfully for 8 yrs but chose the middle of NM to reveal why the guy who rebuilt the head told me I should think about buying a new one. Two of the valve guides began to disintegrate. Pieces fell into the combustion chamber & sounded like a slapping rod. I had it towed to Bozo's Garage in Santa Rosa (hey Bozo!) & he let me work on it on his lot. I pulled the engine & found the problem. His crew were so amazed at the insanity of driving an old vw from CA to OK, that they all wanted to be in on it, "Baby Jesus watches over idiots". Ok, even as an atheist, I can't argue w/ that.

I cleaned out the pieces imbedded in the piston, drove it on to Oklahoma leaking oil like a sieve, and rebuilt it there again using new(er) parts. Okies are in no hurry to do anything when they sense desperation as an opportunity to raise prices. Fortunately, having grown up in the San Joaquin valley CA (Grapes of Wrath), I had a perfect Oklahoma accent, though somewhat rusty. It kept me from getting shot, but not from getting overcharged. Here is where years of meditation comes in handy: I decided not to care (much), & had my landlady send some pistons & cylinders from my garage workbench at home. My kid was occupied w/ finals so I sat around her place wasting away from ennui while she finished her year & I waited for parts & eventually wrote this post.

Richard Dawkins to file for the Popes arrest when he visits England in Sept. 2010